26 January 2019

I AM 1 IN 4 - A LETTER TO MY YOUNGER SELF BATTLING WITH POOR MENTAL HEALTH



January 2018

Age 21

Hello Kathleen,

I want to start off by saying I am sorry. I am sorry that I have treated you so unfairly these last several years. I am sorry that when you were in desperate need of help - body shaking, head screaming and heart bleeding - I ignored you and saw your struggles and pain as trivial and being weak and needy. I’m sorry that I have embraced self-hate and forgot how to like you, never mind love you. I’m sorry for forcing you to not cry in front of others and bottle it up because I taught you it was a sign of weakness. I’m sorry for forcing you to say yes to the things you wanted to do least. I’m sorry for allowing myself to give all spare time, effort and energy to helping others and for then not giving you the same. I’m sorry for putting you last in line.
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